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So the game wasn't so bad. Brock didn't say anything to me, as always as he does for weeks after he gets what he wants out of me. I really don't care though because it's happened before. It's the same cycle with him. Makeout, makeout, leave me, don't hear from him for a while, go to Foreman, and it starts all over. I don't know why I fall for his shit. I mean, I can't stand him. I can't stand the way he looks, his eyes, his BUTT in football or baseball pants, how he says baby, the power he has over me, the way he drives and tries to hit everything possible. But most of all i hate the way I DON'T hate all these things and I really care about him.

I guess in a way, he's like my Mr. Big. He's a sweetheart, and I know I really care for him, but I just can't stand him sometimes.

He's my weakness and I can't help that. I hate it, but I love it all the same. Brock's just him and no one can change him....and I love that about him.

I can't explain how I feel about him and sure as hell can't tell you how he feels about me, if he has even ANY feelings at all he sure can hide them. It's so weird how he can look at me and I can't say NO.

     That's one of my many weaknesses with him...I can't say NO. He's just so irresistable to me! I may not like it, but it's a fact. I can't tell Brock NO.
       Back to the day....lol. The game was pretty fun, Holly introduced me to Corey, he's really hott and so is #7, but I think Corey seems pretty cool. I may call him later if I can even remember his number.
       Thursday's Brock BREWER'S birthday and senior skip day. Then we're out Friday through the 18th for spring break. I'll be going to Bossier City to see Kenny Chesney (JOY..NOT). Maybe it will be fun.

As for A-ROD, he's still with Kendall!


	Ashley Whatley April 6, 2004 05:45 AM PDT Hey girlie--I know how that is--just not with Brock lol--and trust me it sux in a way--but iono--lol--its also weird becuz u love them so much and you dont want to say no cuz u dont want to screw ur chances w/them up!! lol--its so confuzing!


	Jonny Sessions April 5, 2004 07:41 PM PDT I think you should forget about both brocks and find somebody who can make a commitment to you. You deserve sombody better than that.